Not all those who wander are lost.

Live through feeling and you will live through Love.

2012-01-29T16:20:00.003-08:00

Happy Birthday Everribody~

Honestly i never knew ren ri existed until everyone here was saying happy birthday. And so we all celebrated our Sunday with dimsum for lunch! Such a long line up, like an hour's wait, and we were all so hungry we ended up pressurizing the waiter to get us seats. But it was worth the wait cause we all ate till we were stuffed.

Omg i have so much work to do, but I'm haven't done a single thing. Practically wasted my whole weekend away. Not to mention i went shopping yesterday, and it was such an impromptu trip, i ended up spending on 2 new winter jacket. I don't even know why i need so many, but shit man it was so cheap.

And i was supposed to be studying just now, but guess what. I was lying on Kim's bed talking to her, and i just dozed off for like 2 hours. Sigh, i fail in so many aspects in life -_-

HAHAHA oh i was reading my assignment just now, wow we get to write about our personal goals and like how to reach our goals, omgosh what a great course and it's worth 5%. coooool.

Day-dreamer

2012-01-22T18:43:00.002-08:00

I just realised how little pictures I've taken since school started.

Been so busy every single day, finally had today to just rest at home and laze around.

Anyways, this week was filled with school, readings, assignments.

Grocery Shopping and late after school lunch on Monday with Kim.

Half-priced Wings on Tuesday with Rachel. Also us happily shopping for the lucky draw gifts for Friday's dinner. And wanting every single gift we picked out HAHAHA.

Thai food for dinner on Wednesday with Leonie and Kevin.

Lunch with Grace on Thursday and Korean bbq for dinner with Rachel.

Cny dinner on Friday, and gambling till 4am.

Downtown yesterday.

And today i'm just bumming around at home.

I honestly don't know how it got to 10pm when i didn't even do anything substantial today.

Omg and my phone bill acc is like fucked or something? They keep sending me random bills for shit i never even paid for. Omg i feel like killing them now.

Colors & Promises

2012-01-15T13:57:00.002-08:00

Such an exhausting week.

Spent most of my time rushing for classes. Library's silent zone in between and after classes. Home just for food and sleep. But it's not too bad having a term test during the second week of school, at least my studying momentum is back on and I'm not like procrastinating and being complacent about school work. I figured I work much better under stress, except maybe like not being able to sleep properly every night.

I've been neglecting my phone so much, only replying unless I'm meeting them for dinner or anything regarding school. But i got to replying everyone today when i woke up, spent like 45mins in bed just typing out replies.

The weekend just zoomed by. Yesterday i finally had korean bbq, soooo happy! I've been craving for it since like forever, and went over to Rachel's place after and talked for 2 hours hahahahaha. Then she walked me home at like 2.30am, i was so scared we would get kidnapped or some shit omg canada is sooo scary at night. Okay i find Sg scary too though. And it was freezinggggg, like literally, i swear it was -30degrees out there or something.

sigh. I have to catch up on my studying again, cause i'm already behind.

2012-01-09T23:25:00.002-08:00

It's only day 1 of week 2 and I already feel like I'm literally dying.

Sigh.

"Who are you to judge the life i live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers, make sure you hands are clean."

I swear everyone should just live their own life and comprehend to the term, mind your own business. You don't need to give your opinion about other people's lives, cause you know what, they never fucking asked you for one.

2012-01-04T22:24:00.003-08:00

This exactly. Everything I'm feeling.

Because after everything, yes it does fucking matter that's why it still hurts.

Omg right now i wish feelings didn't exist. I wish we could shut our hearts to things we don't want to feel. Or more like, every single fucking feeling is everything that i've already gone through. And i really can't do it again, i can't go through everything again.

So you know what, you're the last person I want to get close to right now cause each time we get closer, it's like every single fucking feeling will just come back up.

Just the thought of it scares me.

Just the slightest trickle of that feeling is enough to send me 5km away from you.

I wish life wasn't so complicated. I wish I didn't make everything so complicated. I wish I could change how i feel about everything, but i guess time doesn't heal everything, does it.

2011-12-21T23:04:00.004-08:00

Downtown shopping today with Rachel ^^

Never actually shopped at Abercrombie cause it's way too expensive and isn't really my kinda style. Too simple for that price man. But since there's sales now, why not right.

Hehe my christmas-y nails! So many people commented on how cute it is. ^^ Hohoho

Okay I should really stop entering f21, whenever i enter i go on some spree i swear.

Rachel can actually fit into Abercrombie kids. The clothes are sooo cute though, its like miniature. And it's cheaper too HAHAHA buy kids if you can fit in.

This place is soooo good. Salad King for Lunch.

Oh and i bought this leather boots with Grace on Sunday. But it's so comfy i love it. HAHAHA and i made Kim try it on so i could tell her how comfy it was and she wanted to get a pair HAHAHAHA Okay but it kinda hurts right now cause i used it on Monday and had to break into it. So :(

Korean Pork Bone Soup with Grace on Sunday

York Dale shopping on last Wednesday.

Okay yup i'm just so lazy and i have so many pictures with me that is not even on fb yet.

Kbox with Kim and her friend, and i think this was on.. See i don't even remember dates man. Ah ha last friday! HAHAHAHA

Omgosh i'm so tired, i woke up so early today just to travel an hour and a half to get downtown. And I was late -.- And Friday i'm off to the mountains to Snowboard for 4 days hehe quite eggcited kekekex.

Promise me you'll always stay

2011-12-14T21:47:00.006-08:00

Hi Finals are over and i screwed up my Stats paper. Like i even stayed for the whole 3 hours of the exam and i was so unsure about everything. Sigh. Okay that aside, after the exam i was in such a down mood cause it went so badly, but luckily Grace and David came with Beef Pad Thai for me. Then we walked back to my place and chilled.

Today i went shopping at York Dale. As seen from all my purchases above. Topshop, Holt Renfrew, Zara, American Apparel, bubbletea and HMV with Leonie. Gosh that mall is huge, we almost died walking around man. Then Wild Wings for dinner, hehe so yummy i love the bbq+Blue Cheese Wings, like sooo good hee. Got Home and painted my nails the dark green while watching Criminal Minds.

Sometimes I wish you it wasn't you. Sometimes I wish I never knew you. Not because i hate you or anything, but because for some reason it still hurts. It still hurts knowing that in the end, the people you still want in your life will never make the same effort to try to be in yours. And so you suck it in, you suck it all in cause after-all, it's easier not to care, than to admit to yourself all the reasons why you do.

And i guess it's true that friends really come and go. And fuck, I am so tired I swear. I'm so tired of trying to maintain every relationship with the people i love. I'm so tired of being the first one to make the effort. I'm so tired of everything. So you said you'll always be here, and you said that you're glad to have me in your life. Really? Which part of that did you actually mean yeah.

Okay those two are totally unrelated. I just had to get it out cause it's like eating me inside out. I'm so fucking disappointed right now I feel like killing someone.

Heaven is inside.

2011-12-10T11:23:00.002-08:00

I think i have a bizarre obsession for pretty rooms. And considering i spent the afternoon yesterday moving furniture around. Efforts paid off cause best of all, Kim could actually tell the difference. ^^

Walking down a winter wonderland,

2011-12-08T17:00:00.001-08:00

Oh goodness me, study break is so boring. I don't think I've spent that much time at home ever since this semester started. And since my next exam is on 13th, I've just been bumming around at home. Running errands with Kim and that's pretty much all I do.

Christmas is coming! Downside, Winter is hereeee. But still, Got to love the festive season ^^

Everybody in the front, go clap your hands

2011-12-06T22:56:00.002-08:00

I really want to watch this show. Actually I wasn't really that interested in it when Grace told me her sister was going down to Sg from M'sia just to watch it. But sigh after i watched the trailer, it looks pretty good and the song is so nice. Though not a huge fan of such cliche movies, but i don't mind this one for some odd reason.

Anyway I'm done with one final exam! Just one more left to go. Then December holidays are coming up. Okay, Not really looking forward to December hols though cause technically I'm not spending any time with people I love, except with Kim in Ottawa. So where's the Christmas spirit yo? And that's it, cause she's going to be in LA. And i'm just left here in Mississauga to rot. Not to mention, so many friends either going back home or already back home in sg. So just shoot me seriously :'( All I've got is talking to them on bbm and whatsapp to pei wo, this lonely gal sad forever here.

Okay need to stop all the self pitying HAHAHAHA. I'm already doing that on whatsapp to Rachel and i bet she's dying trying to deal with me but HA. Who asked you to go back to Sg huh :'(

Then I wouldn't let you go,

2011-12-04T13:45:00.002-08:00

Omg exams are killing me. I'm so bored and so easily distracted. Swear every 30 seconds of reading, I drift off and think of something else. Sigh shoot me man!

All of this,

2011-12-01T23:24:00.003-08:00

For Alex,

I really miss you so much :( And we have serious communication problem cause our whatsapp is never in sync one. Sigh i miss you so much that sometimes i stare at all our pictures we took together over the few months, and just miss everything and all the silly things we talked about. The nights sitting around some random quiet place and just talking about everything. I miss how we'll always meet up and we can never ever decide what to eat, and always end up eating the same places. I miss all your lame jokes that cheer me up. I miss all of that, I really miss you.

For Xue,

even though you're here in Canada, you're here yet not here with me. You've been so busy with your studies and i know how hard it is, cause you're taking all the courses that I've already dropped. I miss you so much. I love how I'll be going through a hard time and you'll just coincidentally send me a really long text, and it just cheers me up reading it. I miss our sleepover whenever we visit each other, and the long talks we have. I miss the times we skype and the text convos where each of us don't take a few days to reply.

Shit man, I really miss how things were a year ago. Even though heart matters weren't what i wanted, but at least i had the people i love by my side, every day. Now everyone is just gone, and leading their own lives in their own place. I feel so alone.

And to my favorite boy in the world, thank you for still being in my life. Thank you for showing me that this friendship is still strong and making the effort to remain close. For all the stupid things you say, for making me laugh, for listening to me complain and giving me lousy advice. I really miss you so much.

I wish,

2011-11-26T21:01:00.002-08:00

I think I've reached the point in my life again where I just want to run away from everything. I want to get away from School, from the drama, from the mess I've made up in my head. I feel like everything is just clumped up together that i don't even know half the shit i'm feeling already. Part of me just wants to push all this out of my life, or just jumble it all up together and throw it aside. Then i wouldn't have that sinking feeling in me where i feel it eat me up from inside, and i wouldn't need to feel like i'm holding things back. Okay shitttttttttttt i don't even know what i'm saying anymore. Why can't life just be peaceful and I get to be happy everyday and all day?

2011-11-25T08:57:00.003-08:00

Omg i'm such a failure. My days are filled with doing nothing substantial at all. All i do is go out and eat good food, text the whole wide world and all my lovelies that i miss. And, the most non-substantial thing i do that's a total waste of time is.. play cards.

What a life.

Anyway, going to meet Rachel for Starbucks and Macs in 30 mins. And i'm still in my pjs. HAHAHHAAHAHA i waste so much time. Time flies, It's gonna be December soonzy woonzy~ Then April, and i can go back to Sg!! O m g veli goot can't wait.

Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on

2011-11-23T14:16:00.001-08:00

Hilowmilo o^_____^o

Okay finally the week of school is over, can finally catch my breath. This week has been so shitty, insane workload for my marketing project. Add on the frustration of divided work load, swear I'm just drained out everyday.

So anyway, that is over, buffalo US was such a fulfilling trip hehehehe shopped my life away! So now my room is kinda filled with all my materialistic purchases. I got a coach bag, a juicy winter coat, Kate spade, lots of forever 21 and Gap. Too bad I didn't find anything from Michael kors. But its okieeeee very happy still.

Wah do tired I think I shall go get some shut-eye for awhile. Vvvv exhausted the past 3 days.

The one that got away

2011-11-18T20:24:00.001-08:00

Hello US~
I'm here in New York, buffalo with Kim and Rachel! We had The Cheesecake Factory for dinner, and off to shopping at the mall. Rachel left with a $150+ stash from urban outfitter. And we all left with 6 over pieces from f21. So happyyyy love shopping! ^^

Tomorrow we're going to the outlet mall and moreeee shopping. Gonna get so much stuff man. Hehe :D

Live it up

2011-11-15T22:49:00.001-08:00

So my last term test for the semester is over! I'm just left with project work I finish up and final exams in December. Surprising how time flies by so quickly. Anyway, week wasn't too bad. Lots of impromptu dinners, Korean food, 3 days straight in a row, butter chicken, hotpot, and bubble tea for supper yesterday. Oh look at the hello kitty I bought hahahha freaking cute right. I'm going to get the same one but different color outfit for Xue! ;)

Omg I need to stop going in eBay. After Dinner with leonie and she mentioning eBay. Off I went, and 10 min later i ordered myself a hoodie from american apparel that I've been eyeing on. I amaze myself man I swear.

Not to mention shipping is pretty cheap cause this Is Canada. So much nearer as compared to back home! Hahahahahahahahha

2011-11-13T20:50:00.003-08:00

Finally got to whatsapping this girl, fucking miss you yknw? :(

Omtian my mood today and yesterday is like shitty beyond shitty. Until i don't even know what i'm thinking already. After tomorrow's test i think i will just be in solitude for a few days.

Love lost

2011-11-13T15:11:00.001-08:00

I hate that I let you down,
And I feel so bad about it.
I guess karma comes back around,
Cause now I'm the one that's hurting.
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken.
Don't tell me that you can't forgive me, cause nobody's perfect.

I'm so mentally tired. Sigh :( like I swear I have all of these inspirational pictures all over my itouch so that I can motivate myself to work hard or something. I miss Xue so much but she's also so busy with school. Omg uni really sucks man. I really hope I can see her before final exam starts. I think I need to live a loner life or something, just study and sleep that's all. Then I don't have over think every situation and my life will be so peaceful.

Time changes the word forever.

2011-11-08T22:25:00.006-08:00

Omgoodness. I need to stop online shopping. I was hooked onto ebay for 1.5 hours ever since i got back from the movies. This is so baddddd. Anyway, Happy tuesdayyyy ^^ caught Johnny English with Kim and Rachel. I love Tuesdays, everything is like half priced. I have done approximately zero studying since last Friday. It's unimaginable how lazy I am seriously. Okay, well i did sit in the library for an hour ish today, reading like my stats textbook, but i didn't really get anything since I was busy thinking about other stuff, like how hungry I am, what i wanna eat for dinner, and how i want to watch movie at night. Oh and i was like texting people about plans for whichever day, etc etc I get very distracted. So, Yup okay tomorrow i'll study for sure.

Hehe kinda can't wait to go to the US next weekend!! Gonna check out hotels tomorrow! :D Yeah, like 2 weeks before our finals we're going to the US to shop HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA damn bad influence man.

2011-11-07T21:42:00.003-08:00

Time and time again, you'll tell yourself, the next time I'll be smarter, the next time i won't let this happen to me again. And when that next time comes, you make the same mistake again. You trust too fast, You expect too much and the disappointment comes soon after.

2011-11-02T20:42:00.001-07:00

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, its usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping.

Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network

2011-11-01T21:38:00.002-07:00

Okay the reason why i only have 3 pictures from Halloween is because i'm lazy as hell to find for them right now. I'm so tired. I slept over at Rachel's place last night, ended up talking to her till 5ish. Woke up at 10 and went to get Macs Breakfast. Took a shower and then rush off to school. Ended up chilling in a another rachel's dorm and htht for 2 hours. Then went for korean food with Rachel, j and cris. Went back home and headed out for grocery shopping with Kim. Then i skyped with my best friend in the whole wide world that i miss like truckloads and will bus down to waterloo anytime for, but she doesn't have time for me -.- Yup so here i am, so damn tired. I have classes at 9 and i have to study for a midterm this Friday. I haven't even started.

Oh gosh. Can more guys come to canada? Like seriously, Where are all the guys like Ian???????????????????? where where where. Need more people that i can talk to endlessly and not get annoyed HAHAHAHA

2011-10-31T11:51:00.001-07:00

I really wish I could close my heart to everything. Very soon I'm going to be as destroyed as how I was one year ago. And it's like the same shit I let myself fall into. Just that this time its a different person.

2011-10-19T07:34:00.002-07:00

I can't wait for the weekends. I am so tired of school, assignments and mid terms. It's like 5 days of torture. ): On a bright note, Dinner with Rachel later. Hehe can't wait.

Not seeing that loving you, was what i was trying to do.

2011-10-16T18:59:00.010-07:00

Smoking Menthol in the cold, we best.

LOOK AT THIS. I WANTTTTTTTTTTT. Apprently it's sold out all over Canada. And iphone 4 is going for $50, omg i might as well get that since i don't see that much diff too. -.-

I think i do way too much stuff in a week to even recall. Okay let me think, school was quite relaxing this week. So a lot of time to do nonsense. BR with Kimmy, David and Thach on tues, pizza on thurs, and real steel on Friday. Then saturday dinner was spent with Rachel at Wow, the pork bone soup so niceeee hehe. I wanna be korean. We forced each other to brave the wind and cold for our food HAHA heroes in the making. Today I just lazed around at home, met Rachel and Joleena for Starbucks for teatime. Came back and study, had S-breaks. Then ended up planning for the next weekend. HAHAHA omg next sat i'm going to halloween haunt at Wonderland. I'm kinda excited kekekex even though i don't really fancy theme parks that much. But i don't know, must be this stupid Rachel made me excited this afternoon.

2011-10-16T09:58:00.003-07:00

Sometimes it scares me how unexpected life can be. Somewhere along the way, suddenly everything falls into place so perfectly. And it's not that I don't want it, I've wanted something like this since 1 year ago. I'm shocked by it that I don't even know how to react. Just a year ago, everything was different and i would give anything to be where I am now. But now that I'm here, it's terrifying not knowing when all of this will be taken away too.

2011-10-11T21:49:00.003-07:00

O m g i was this close to buying a Michael Kors bag I swear. Until my stupid credit card didn't allow me to. Shit man, only $130. And it's the bag I've always wanted. Brand new. With tags. Gosh, okay that leaves buffalo already man.

I think my stomach is having issues. My food is not digesting, from since 8ish this evening. I can't go to sleep with this full stomach man.

This story's getting old.

2011-10-09T13:51:00.006-07:00

Hello everyone. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Let me think.

I give thanks to everything that has happened this year.

I give thanks for where i am today, how i got to where I am now.

I give thanks for getting into Commerce Accounting.

I give thanks for my family.

I give thanks for Kim, thank you for being there for me always. For coming home from school and having you to talk to and making me feel better. For standing my random moodswings and my constant whining. hehe

I give thanks for all my closest friends in Canada, thank you for making my life here so much better.

I give thanks for the bad moments this year, and getting through it. I've grown stronger.

I give thanks for the great moments that i will always remember, and i'd never trade for anything else in the world.

Okay alot more, but I would be listing my whole life.

So anyway, i finally got my Halloween costume yesterday. I hope it's nice when it comes in to the mail. Hehe ^^ Omg forget it, i did alot of things over the week and i can't exactly recall anything. All in all, very busy but very good time spent.

2011-10-08T08:14:00.003-07:00

I hope you will be happy with wherever you will be.

I hope you find what you are looking for.

And most of all, i hope you live a life you are proud of.

2011-10-07T07:28:00.001-07:00

I literally feel an aching feeling in my chest. Along with a hell lot of emotions.

Keep calm and carry on

2011-10-03T22:39:00.001-07:00

School is literally draining all my energy. Having 2 test, one quiz, 2 assignments dued this week. I honestly can't wait for this weekend. Hello thanksgiving hehe I love turkeys and stuffinggggg ^^ so anyway, I don't even know why I'm so disorganised this year, today I wad sitting in class with Rachel and she just went,"oh he just said that the assignment is dued on wed at 2pm." HAHAHAHAHA smart, I didn't even know it existed.

I have no energy now cause I've been utilizing my brain since 9am till now. My muscles can't move. Omg and I just randomly applied for a card once again. And wtf why hasn't my other 2 arrive yet?! So madddd! :(

Okay need sleep nao.

Cause we're the lucky ones on every road.

2011-09-30T22:48:00.003-07:00

-bumblechyambee@tumblr

This is from one of the most important people in my life, whom i can't live without a text from each day. And, for making the past 2 years here in Canada so so so much more livable. Thank you xue for the long texts, sacrificing your weekends to see me, for checking up on me everyday despite your crazy acturial science schedule, i love you hehe.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA this is my $100 stash of Tommy. (But on a side note, there was a sale.) And Tommy might look simple and too plain, but hoho bet you never tried on a piece in your life, it's like woahhhh when you put it on. I mean that's what i felt la, when i tried it on in US.

I swear money well spent this month, along with my Longchamp and Zara stash. Okay wow I really spend way too much money. October is another Money-consuming month man. I don't even know how i'm going to make it through. Next weekend is gonna be so damn busy. Thanksgiving is up! And, guess what? Soooo many test after, shit man. Then there's Iphone 5 coming out, so woohooooooo I'm going to get it for sure. I just haven't told my parents about it, HAHAHAHA. Then Halloween! Clubbing night, and alot of events too. Omg I've already decided on what to be already!! POLICE WOMAN HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i'm so excited! Gonna go get my outfit soon hehehe. I feel so spontaneous man!

Okay i'm so tired. Today was such a good day. Sushi for lunch, shopping w Leonie, school for a club's meeting, out to BR for zhajiangmian and bubbletea. Then to Terry's house for movie marathon, like 2 movies back to back and chilling with beer in his basement.

2011-09-25T20:17:00.003-07:00

This kind of bestfriend. Seriously, i will go to Waterloo and kill her i swear.

Another eventful week. School was so tiring, as usual. I think i failed my microecons test 1 HAHA i have yet to go get it from my prof. Unfinished assignment on friday, thus another failure. Esms orientation. Hospital for almost 4 hours. Now it's unproductive studying and excessive facebook.

Anyway, thanks everybody for asking me if i'm well! And Rachel and Kim who accompanied me to the hospital and stayed with me through out. And terry who drove us back and forth, i feel sooooo bad for using up so much petrol.

Just shoot me seriously. I'm so damn lazy i should just drop out of school.

2011-09-25T20:03:00.003-07:00

For God's sake Laura. Pull yourself together and walk away. Just keep walking until you're happy with where you are. And don't fucking look back. Don't even think about how things used to be, how much you wish to hold onto the past and relive it. Don't even think about all the things that changed. All the people that you let go, all the people you care so much with your whole heart but forced yourself to let them go, and all the promises you made to yourself. Don't look back at all the hurt, all the times you cried and all the nights you couldn't fall asleep because it was all you could think of. Don't remember how he made you feel, the times when you could see him trying, how you used to mean something to him, now you're nowhere near the top. Forget everything he said, he meant it then, remember that it doesn't mean he means it now. Don't wish that you could turn around and take back everything you said, just because it made everything different now. Don't ever ever look back and cry because you wished some things could just stay where they were.

2011-09-23T12:19:00.003-07:00

OMG someone just tell me why i'm in accounting. I suck at financial accounting, i don't even know how to freaking adjust the entries, let alone debit or credit all those bullshit. Omg and i could barely do the assignment that's dued today. And so i gave up, now i have to rush off to meet Kim cause we have stuff to buy for tomorrow and like 10 million things to do cause people keep adding stuff to my list to do. Please just shoot me.

2011-09-17T17:26:00.002-07:00

"It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further and further away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same again. You tell yourself its not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it."

-eletheowl, tumblr.

What are you waiting for?

2011-09-17T10:42:00.005-07:00

This is a week's worth of happenings!

Club's week, was at the booth almost every day, in between classes. So shagged everyday when i get home. But all in all, Thank you everyone who joined ^^ Very happy to meet new faces.

Friday's off for me, spent it in Downtown Toronto with Leonie.

Good shopping trip and day very well spent with this girl. Hehe, look at all my buys, I'm broke for sure this week. Not to add on the Aldo shoes i bought after. Korean for Lunch, Moroco chocolate Fondue for teatime, Chatime after a whole 3 hours of shopping, and back to Missi for Zhajiangmian for Supper. Omg the amount of food we eat HAHA

Okay i want the Michael Kors bag that i saw, Argh but i just got a Long Champ like 2 weeks ago. So i guess Michael Kors will be out of the question right now unless i find someone to cross border with me to the US to go get it.

I give up, i'm going to be rich i swear. Hello Accounting, please do some justice in my life, i will work hard for you promise. I just want a job that pays very well by the time i'm 25, and an Audi by 28 thank you very much.

And this is for my bestfriend Xue. Hello my bbg, i'm seeing you tomorrow, i cannot wait. Miss her so much much much 4 months is too long.

2011-09-13T21:15:00.001-07:00

Wow apple now has blogger app. Hehe not bad. Okay I'm dying cause I got home and 9 and my eyelids can't stay open for nuts omg.

You'd be killing them

2011-09-13T18:53:00.004-07:00

Omg i'm fucking tired i can just drop dead everyday when i get home. Anw school is such a tiring lifestyle, getting too old for 9am classes man. Okay now I'm starting to feel it, Xue thinks i'm mad to put all my lessons at 9am mon-thurs straight through.

I was actually thinking of being a good student, and getting all my books asap so that i can do my readings. But HA-HA-HA who am i kidding man, i never ever do my readings until like maybe 2 days before a test so all my textbooks are just lying there even though i was so eager to get them. The amount of work i write on my planner is just piling up and i'm getting none of them done. Good job Laura *pats back*

Today all through lecture i was just thinking of having wings for dinner, cause it's Tuesday HAHAHA. Thank goodness for Leonie and Kevin hehe. Woah, today i think i hit record speed of walking back home. I don't even know how we started the topic but suddenly we were talking about haunted shit. I was so scared to walk home alone plus it's all dark oh my goodness, and the amount of criminal minds i watch. Seriously i need to stop.

Sigh............................... School sucks. I need Friday now, I'm off on Fridays omg soooo happy. Hehe :>

And omg i end at 8pm tomorrow, just kill me. Okay no way i'm staying in school after 6, my brain will just die on me at like 4 pm i swear. I think i'm gonna sneak into the 4pm lecture even though it's full. But fuck it, can't last for that long in school.

2011-09-06T19:38:00.000-07:00

I am so damn sleepy and I'm killing myself by lying on the bed texting. I have 10 million things to do but like zero energy zero zero zero. Swear my energy is depleting by the second. I think by like 9 I'll be sleeping already. Omg can't do this, I think I'm getting too old for 15 hour flights man.

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2011-09-02T10:16:00.004-07:00

It's either me or tumblr is way too lovey dovey tonight. Like seriously, people need to stop reblogging shit like:

AND

Oh my goodness it makes me feel so.................. as if i'm not cynical enough about love. This is just making it worse. I'm saying in a context that i hate those 2 pictures esp the words 'You are my one in 6 billion'.

Okay so great school is starting on Tuesday, and i'm not even mentally prepared. Okay whatever i'm never prepared anyway, i just dive into it as always. I bet first week into school and i'll be thinking i need a holiday already.

And i need more money. I don't know how i'm going to live. No more scholarship money cause I've spent all of it. And my working to save up for allowance this sem didn't even work out at all since i just spend all of it in Singapore. So yup, life is tough.

I'm all set, i have decided to get my driver's license. Okay or maybe, if i can find the time, find someone to take lessons with me, find the determination, yeah then maybe i'll go get it.

2011-08-31T07:06:00.002-07:00

OMG my mood right now is like shit. With all due respect you could have just told me right, it's so damn difficult for you is it. Well fuck yeah, I should just scream it in front of your face when you tell me you don't have any close friends. That people like you who will never ever spare a thought for anyone else other than yourself, will never be considered anyone's close friend. So try as hard as you can to make as many friends as you possibly can, and maybe you'll realise that no one ever stays. Fucking bubble you're living in, hope that in the back of your mind you'll at least have the common sense to know that it'll one day burst.

I promise you that, we're marching on.

2011-08-26T09:55:00.004-07:00

heeloo ^^

OMG i only have 9 days. Woah. Okay i think all my next few posts will be all about how i have very little time left in Sg and lead myself into depression or something. Sigh summer is over time to go back to school sob sob. Anyway, I am officially broke, I've been spending my money on expensive food every night for dinners, Cab fares home, Random shopping, Movies, yeah and bubble tea. Sigh ohmaigawd I've even been secretly robbing my mum HAHAHA and it doesn't even cover the entire night. Okay just kidding it's not exactly called robbing since when i get home i'll tell her i took like 30 or something like that. I can't wait for my pay to come in next week, and i'm also free from work. Singing K on Thursday with Aud can't wait can't wait, who wants to singalong with us - Chinese songs only tqvm~ HAHAHA Chinese songs are cool okay. Must know how to read the traditional thingy, so obviously i don't cause some smart ass here got c6 hahahaha okay so pros just memorize the lyrics kekekekezx. In conclusion, it takes a lot of (Hidden) talents.

Woah yesterday i had Ajisen with Aud, and omg new discovery, the gyozas (How to spell, aiya can eat can already) there are like freaking good. HAHAHAHA like............... okay the ones i mostly eat are really dry, but this one like damn scrumptious!! Heavenly until i don't even know how to describe ^^ most overpriced gyozas I've ever eaten but worth it. And we were sitting around waiting till 9 pm so we could go to Cafe Cartel for half-priced cakes + deserts. HAHAHAAHA okay la actually it was because of my sudden cheese cake cravings. So i kinda dragged Aud along with me to have cravings too hehe. Omg so sad that secret recipe was like so far away or else we would have went there for my oreo cheesecake. Speaking of which, i miss the cheesecakes from 'The Cheesecake Factory'. Oh I took like 3 days to finish one slice of Godiva chocolate cheesecake HAHAHA cause it was too rich to finish at one shot. Yup but it was soooo good, best ever.

-.- At this rate i can start a freaking food blog i swear. I can't wait for Alex to bring me to our long awaited Hotpot place! We always say we wanna go there, but we don't because there's a time limit and then we won't have a place to slowly eat and talk. But we will on Sunday can't wait can't wait, Hopefully. And i can't remember the Dim Sum buffet that she's asking me to remember.

When you're too in love to let it go

2011-08-23T22:42:00.003-07:00

I am so tired. Just another week of work and i'm done! Can like chill at home all morning until i go back. Okay i think i need to estimate how much money i can spend at H&M before i go back, plus buy my longchamp bag in HK airport. Alright alright, life is good.

Anyway, yesterday was out the whole day with Kim, then met up with her friend, forgot what his name was HAHAHA. So I had my beer and my favorite Roast Duck pizza hehe ^^ And omg the beer hit me so hard i don't even know why, i couldn't even freaking pee it out. Even until i went home and slept it was still in my system till the next morning. HAHAHAHA #fail.

Oh yesterday Kim went to do some temp tattoo. Woah i'm so tempted to get one now. I want mine like this!!

Okay but then if i do it now it will probably be on impulse, like all my other piercings :( but i wantttttttttttttttttttttttttt. Ohmaigawdddddddddddddddddddd

2011-08-23T20:30:00.001-07:00

被爱的人不用道歉。

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You know it all takes my breath away

2011-08-22T22:12:00.001-07:00

Heylo everybodehhhhh ~
I'm in the happiest mood today cause I woke up to messages from the 3 most favorite people in the world ^____^
Okay xue not really counted since I had to tell her I just woke up before she sent me an essay. But nonetheless.....

I'm sitting on my bed waiting for Kim let me know when she's anywhere in 1km approximity of town so I can leave my house hahaha. So for the time being I'm just nua-ing around.

I love how the week starts out with no plans at all, and then suddenly all the days are filled ^^ hehe makes me happy that there's people I love to see.

This girl forever making my day. Love love her very muchieeeee! <3 don't eat so much nuggets okieeee :* muah give you kiss.
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2011-08-21T23:38:00.001-07:00

“Sometimes we lie because it’s easier than telling the truth. Sometimes we lie because we need to forget. Sometimes we lie because you don’t want to tell her she looks fat in those jeans. Sometimes we lie because fantasy is better than reality. Sometimes we lie because it’s too painful to tell the truth. Sometimes we lie because we think it’s the truth. Sometimes we lie because it’s faster to do so. Sometimes we lie because you need to get out of something. Sometimes we lie because life can’t wait. Sometimes we lie because pain is not an option. Sometimes we lie because there is nothing better to do. Sometimes we lie because we need to turn attention away from ourselves. Sometimes we lie because we don’t know what else to do. Sometimes we lie because we don’t want to tell children there isn’t a Santa Claus. Sometimes we lie because it gives us a laugh. Sometimes we lie because sarcasm gives emphasis. Sometimes we lie because we need to prove a point. Sometimes we lie because everyone needs a break once in a while. Sometimes we lie because an alibi is needed. Sometimes we lie because a surprise is being planned. Sometimes we lie because we could lose money. Sometimes we lie because we want to keep a friend. Sometimes we lie because we are instructed to. Sometimes we lie because money is offered. Sometimes we lie because revenge is sweet. Sometimes we lie because we would like to hurt someone emotionally. Sometimes we lie because agreeing is easier than debating. Sometimes we lie because we are scared. And rarely do we ever tell the truth.”

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Young, Wild and Free

2011-08-21T08:04:00.002-07:00

Oh hay..... i think i have a sole talent in blogskins HAHAHA. Not bad huh my new one, and i seriously suck at whatever html shit. I can't do all these techy things for nuts, heh i have new found talent ^^

Anyway, i bought Xue's birthday present today. Omg i'm so excited to give it to her now!! Hehehe i realise i always buy her alot of crap i also don't know why. Like there was this time this poster thingy came to UT, i bought a poster for her, and she's always telling me that everyone who comes to the room reads what i wrote on the poster. Yup i'm such a smartie, write a personal note on a poster........... HAHAHAHA

So what we get drunk, So what we smoke weed

2011-08-20T02:54:00.005-07:00

Okay hi i'm sick in bed with a fever and a sore throat, Kill me please. Anyway, i spent thursday night with this girl, just sitting on the steps seriously like living the life of hippies man. Hehe i love you, you're one of the few people whom i can lie down with, sit somewhere quiet, look at the sky with and talk through the night until we both have to get home.

Friday was spent with Zoey, wow it's been such a long time haven't seen her in like forever. HAHA but it made both of us reminisce the good times that i really miss.

I think i need to live a different life. This is choking me up inside out.

I'm wonder-struck.

2011-08-14T22:16:00.002-07:00

Woah, I've just realized that i only have 20 days left before I go back to Canada for second year. Time flies, understatement of the year man. Sigh i don't even know what i dragged myself into for second year. I'm taking courses i have no clue about and i'm in a program that i seriously doubt my abilities for, and i'm only taking it out of interest. Now that think about it, HAHAHAHAHAHA speechlesssss.

Okay I can't wait for tmr. Kim is picking me up and we're going to Imm to shop for whatever we need to bring back to Canada. And seeing my bbf Alex for dinner. Life is Gr8 gr8 gr8 ^^

Do it all again

2011-08-12T09:09:00.005-07:00

I always feel like updating this, then I'll like type everything out on my bb and not send it in cause it's full of my disorganized thoughts don't even link up. HAHAHA so yup my phone has all my unsent emails with all my emo shitz and i just leave it there and not even delete it so anyone who steals my phone will be thinking what a psychopath i am.

But okay since i'm waiting for xue to finish her lunch and go home so that i can facetime with her, i might as well find something to do or else i'll just fall asleep. Omg i can already feel my eyelids closing. I miss her like hell, Anw happy birthday bbg!

Ok i know i didn't really wish you properly and you have tons of other friends and your boyfee that wished you better than i did. So i'm just staying up just for you this is your part 1 present from me, the rest will come when i go back to canada hehe.

Oh no school is starting soon. Sigh i didn't even realise until well.. today when i payed my school fees. Sianzy wianzy i can already imagine myself, i'll be so excited for the first day and going for new courses blah blah blah, and by the end of the first week i'd be like fuck this yeah can't wait for dec hols. And everyone is going back to Canada already and here i am slacking my life away i think my braincells depleted over this 4 months i don't even know how to do p6 math questions already. Now i don't even know what the area of a circle is HAHAHA.

Sometimes when i listen to songs or like watch their mv or something, i kinda wish i lead a life like that. I wish i had someone who love me as much as all those guys in the mv love that one girl. But of course life isn't a fairytale and reality sucks, so as hard as it can be i need to fucking learn how to be happy.

Anyways, today was a pretty good day, day spent at work, solitude time i swear. All the other interns left already cause NUS started school today. Met Alex for dinner, i hate town on Fridays, the whole world is there i think, everywhere is so crowded we took an hour to find somewhere to eat? But good time i spent with her, we realised that......................... we have fucking alot of things in common that we never told each other HAHHAAHAHAHAHA we even telepathy and wore almost the same outfit out la. Hehe <3

Ok lemme just play some ipod games my eyelids closing already HAHAHAHAHAA

We watch as things disappear in front of us

2011-08-09T08:33:00.000-07:00

I need to:
1. Stop taking people I love / love me for granted
2. Stop forgiving so easily to those who don't deserve forgiveness
3. Stop worrying and thinking so much
4. Face fucking reality
5. Put my heart in a coma
6. Not have unnecessary drama
7. LEARN TO BE HAPPY ON MY OWN.

Sigh life sucks. But then again, compared to what?

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Swimming through sick lullabies

2011-07-29T22:42:00.007-07:00

I've decided to use this again, cause i don't know.

Okayyyy enough of the picture spam from my Itouch HAHAHAHAHAHA! So anyway, life has been strangely good, alot of abrupt plans over the past few weeks.

And look at the number of pictures i have with alex omgggggg,10000 more on her phone i swear. Hi siao ding dong bezzie these days spent with you has been gr8888, thank you for everything and the highly amazing experience at ManHunt, our random Provence/bread cravings, the cheap mix rice we eat together. I'm vvv happy i spent them with you! :* Study hard for your exams, i shall not demand any more time from you and just live as a loner 4ever and ever from now on.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA finally got to see Kim after like 10 years, ok kidding it was like roughly 2 months, really miss that girl ^^ and she can drive OHMAIGAWD, love it when people go like, "eh pick you up at momoshijian at your house ah!" like shiok only i swear. Plus i get a ride home at night, even better!

Oh and Ian too HAHAHAHA had butter ribs at commonwealth with him, and then off to watch his stupid Wuxia which had such a terrible ending.

I can't believe it's August already. Where did all my 3 months disappear to?

I will soar with you above the storm

2011-06-30T20:44:00.003-07:00

I'm so bored omg i wish addy was here now. I feel like eating Siew mai everytime i think of addy and say her name cause she's called Addy siew HAHAHAHAHAA. Ok i think when she sees this she's gonna chop me into 10 pieces. Alright enuff about Addy need to stop declaring my luv for her!

I feel like this week just zoomed by, days well spent with people I love ^^ And 10 days with Zoey in M'sia.

Time to continue worky work work siannnnnn :(

2011-06-26T01:33:00.000-07:00

I'm contemplating on changing my program again HAAHAHAHA. Can't stand it, i'm so indecisive.

Up up here we go

2011-06-24T21:42:00.002-07:00

Hi, such a here and there week. Let me recap, commonwealth for butter ribs, meetup with nerissa who came down to Sg, Green lantern and Xmen back to back, and heart to heart talks with my bbg Alex :>

omg reminds of thursday when we both saw each other outside Cine, she yelled my name, and i just went, "HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! OMG!" and then i walked away and she gave me this weird look and walked away too. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA we're the weirdest best friends like ever. No hugs no small talk we just walked away.

I hate running errands. Wth ok that's why i accumulate loads of random shit that i have to do :/

Yay off to KL the following Monday! Yup my holidays are fucking chill man, i'm like on some around asia trip or some shit. Need to go Bangkok before i fly back too. I really wish money grew on trees HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. But looking at how i spend them, the tree will be like barren in no time too.

2011-06-22T01:55:00.003-07:00

This is work.

And more work.

2011-06-21T20:14:00.002-07:00

Haloooow! So I'm here at work and I keep getting dragged off to do stuff like, doing a whole P5 Compre cause the teacher wants sample answer, and being P6 oral examiners for 2 classes. Hehe but I like.

Waiting for Addy to bring lunch for all of us!

Omg so hungry! Finally done with giving oral and now i'm eating whoohooooooo ^^

2011-06-20T09:19:00.002-07:00

Sometimes i wish you could at the very least consider how I'm feeling too. How much I've done for you, that i tried my best and i am still trying. That despite every hurtful thing you've said to me, I forced myself to take it all in. I guess whatever show you put on to people out there, to me you're far from what everyone says about you.

Fuck i think i really give up trying to be the perfect daughter for you.

I need to be happy.

2011-06-20T03:25:00.000-07:00

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2011-06-18T01:13:00.000-07:00

Wish I was prettier
Wish I was skinnier
Wish I looked like those girls in pictures
Wish I was smarter
Wish I had more courage
Wish I had more confidence
Wish I was everything you were looking for.

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2011-06-17T23:00:00.009-07:00

The toilet bowl restaurant!!

My kong kong and mama so kewttttt ^^

The toypoodle is damn freaking cute i wanted to bring her home.

HAHAHAHA

Ok This was my taiwan and hongkong trip with my family. Honestly i think i don't appreciate sightseeing at all, esp weird stuff like towers and monuments whatever. Omg and all those rocks where they say always look like some animal, wtf i stare at it for like 5 mins also don't even see an animal, they just look like rocks still.

Anw, the food and shopping was enjoyable. Luckily my grandparents were around so my dad couldn't scold us too much ahahahahhahahaha. And i got scolded for wanting a Longchamp bag, wah lao like $90 only so cheappppppppp. ok but it's fine since when i fly back to Canada i'm transiting in hk and i can get it hohoho.

So i'm kinda excited to go to KL to visit Zoey and Penang to visit Leonie! Zoey and I are going to ipoh, genting and i really wanna go malacca too, but i doubt we'll have enough time! :( Then Kim is coming back in end June oh and lots of people like Gail and Glenda are gonna come back too in July! And Zoey's coming down so whoopeedooooo! ^^ ohmaigawd can't wait.

HEHE i got my own room! Like FINALLY. I wanted a queen size bed but now that my dad moved some furniture in, it looks kinda full already. And i can't stand my bedsheets it's so ugly omgoodness. Needa change it soon.

Gonna work my life away cause i need money for M'sia in June and Bangkok in Aug! Hehehe.

2011-06-16T20:31:00.001-07:00

Somehow between the midst of everything and life, i just wish you were here with me. And i still miss you so much everyday.

And here's to thinking that maybe this time it would be different. But it never is, so here we go again.

2011-06-15T04:51:00.000-07:00

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2011-06-02T06:41:00.005-07:00

So yesterday evening was spent with my bbg Alex. Hehe headed to ion after work, and walked together to fep. Did our shopping, and wow i'm so proud of myself, i resisted almost of the clothes there. Ok actually i was really lazy to go through the racks and all. Alex did her cornrows there HAHAHA it turned out prettier than i expected. On second thought, i just think that everything looks pretty on her anyway.

Today my mood was soooo bad. Skyped with Zoey for 3 hours yesterday night and sigh something just pissed me off. Not her, but something else. After that I couldn't even fall asleep, so wow thanks a lot. Last night left me feeling so dead the whole of today. Gave work a miss cause I had so much stuff to do before i fly off to taiwan & hongkong. Hehe i got a new ipod my old one had really little space, and spend money like i don't know what these 2 days, i don't even want to think about it. Btw my new birks are hurting the living shit out of my feet. Is it normal that it hurts like crazyyyyy?!?!! i feel like i'm going on war with my own shoes.

Who you love I'll love

2011-05-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

I feel like I'm always reblogging all these sad stuff, when in actual fact, I don't even feel sad at all. I just happen to think all of it is true, that's all. And I just skim through my entire tumblr, I feel like such an emofag omg. When I'm not!! I'm totally happy. Besides the fact that I wanna go bangkok so badly and there's no one to go with. Well no one that I really wanna go with. And also besides the fact that work is very exhausting. Everyday i end, I'm just dead tired. And also the fact that I miss xue a lot.
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Don't stop believing

2011-05-29T07:40:00.008-07:00

Ok i'm so dead tired now. I couldn't even sleep last night for no reason at all, and i only had like 5 hours of sleep before Shar called and woke me up, asking me to go down to somewhere near serene centre to meet the cell group. I think i almost died so tired omg. ok but not too bad, it was kinda fun and cause i just sat on the sofa and laugh the whole time. And the house was like huge with a swimming pool, i'm so jealous wth.

Saturday was spent with ricey sun. OMG that bitch like i've been back for almost 3 weeks, and i only saw her yesterday. What a bitch right horrrrrrrr, sigh love is blind, don't even know why she's my bestfriend sometimes. And then she whole day complain about her hair, it looks totally fine to me, in fact i think its damn sexy cause so whoooo flipped back. (;

Spent Friday night at Timbre with Alex and her friends. We will spend some quality time together after your exams are over okie <3

I think korean girls are so pretty sigh i wanna be them.

2011-05-28T10:28:00.002-07:00

I think i need more money. Like bulks of it.

2011-05-25T10:06:00.003-07:00

I was just reading this girl's blog, and like i ended up watching her wedding video. Wow it's really quite amazing how love can be so unpredictable and unexpected sometimes :') The people we've known our whole lives and never once gave a second thought about, and the people we want to keep in our lives that mean the world to us now. I just wonder 5 years down the road, who will actually still be there.

We gonna make you lose your mind

2011-05-24T07:40:00.002-07:00

I love this girl very much.

Hi we always do nothing together, but time seems to fly by. You're always making me laugh all the time. With all the stupid things you say and do, and all the stupid things you make me do with you. I seriously wanna marry you HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I miss you so bad

2011-05-23T06:35:00.003-07:00

Omg i feel like a useless bum.

Besides work, and random outings, I haven't been doing anything productive. I'm on some criminal minds spree or something, i watch like 3 episodes a day, HAHA remind me of the phase i went through for The Mentalist, i watched like all 3 seasons already. Exam period too. And now it has ended :( I swear by the end of this 4 months, i can finish all the murder series in the world already.

I wanna get heels so badly. Like those really nice wedges. But there's nothing nice in Singapore whywhywhy, i went to almost every possible shoe shop already. Maybe i should try Haji lane, but it would probably cost me like my whole month's allowance i can just eat grass for the rest of the month. Need to go Bangkok desperately.

I feel like just leaving the country, go somewhere nice. Omg i seriously need to get away for awhile, like to clear my mind. And i don't even want to go with a group of people, i just need one person to be with me, someone I can be in a comfortable silence with, just each other's presence.

Hey baby, i think i wanna marry you

2011-05-22T08:01:00.011-07:00

Hi pweetie girl, i have some of the funnest times with you. Even if we just spend the day having steamboat + sushi buffet (Weird combo now that i think about it seriously!), and walking around drinking bubbletea w pink pearls, decorating your boy's cake together, and laughing at your non-existent artistic skills, and taking one million pictures together. I still have the best times with you. I love you best friend of .. 11 years and counting!!!!!!!!!!! OMG you're seriously my oldest oldest friend ever :* hehe

Top of the world

2011-05-19T22:57:00.004-07:00

So upset this morning because my sister totally crush my mood like fuck. Seriously i think i almost lost it and nearly yelled at her. Such an insensitive bitch i swear, i don't even know how she turned 20 with such an mindset.

Ok that aside, yesterday after work i went to meet Alex. Omg she ah, make me travel the longest way to Redhill and she replied soooo slowly. But hehe finally got to Redhill anyway, then we went to Bishan for Japanese buffet and desert! Omg their chicken very nice i think i ate like 6 pieces??? And omg the pasta, to die for. Ok i'm seriously not a desert fan at all, but the crepes was really nice, and the chocolate fondue too. HAHAHA ok why am i talking about food when i have zero appetite to eat now. Then sat there till 8ish hehe love you babe you always make me laugh like there's no tomorrowwwwwwwwwww.

Ok gotta get out of the house soon.

2011-05-17T18:16:00.004-07:00

Go ahead, text him first - he might be checking his phone, waiting for you. Stare into the eyes of the guy you like - memorize the color. Turn on your iPod and run as far as you can. Say hi to a stranger - you never know what they'll become for you. Have a mental health day - you know you need it. Don’t go on facebook for a day and see what you can accomplish. Give money to a charity, your good karma will come around eventually. Sneak out, you might get caught, but it'll be 100% worth it. Tell that one person that you like them, what's the worst that can happen? He doesn't like you back? Then he doesn’t deserve you anyways, right? Treat yourself to something indulgent, you deserve it. Smile at a stranger, it could make their day. Wink, it’s sexy and makes you feel confident. After all, you are pretty hot ;). Go for somebody who is totally wrong for you, they may not be totally wrong after all. Stand up for yourself, because if you don’t, who will. Moral of the story is, YOU ONLY FUCKING LIVE ONCE.

Tell me where you wanna go

2011-05-15T18:18:00.006-07:00

Omg the weekend just zoomed by like some bullet train. So anyway, Saturday was spent with Addysiew. Sushi buffet @ cine, Scape flea, and then to 313. Hehe omg i think she almost killed me in f21, like hello who spends like 3 hours in f21 i swear?! HAHAHA and i didn't even get a single thing HAHA

Sunday was church, lunch w small group, waste time w Bea, then off to raffles city to meet my babygirl Alex yayyyy ^^ hm what we do ah. Oh eat lousy Toast from toast box cause that stupid girl refused to queue up for Din Tai Feng w me. And when the queue was gone she refused to saying she didn't like the xiao long baos there, like i think she's psychotic?!?!?! Ok then we roamed around raffles city, got bored and changed location to Ion. Where we spent like 10k of our money at T-bar and f21.

OK i'm gonna be late for work already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-14T09:17:00.000-07:00

Start appreciating what you have and stop wishing you had more.

2011-05-10T08:02:00.000-07:00

“It was finally becoming clear to her that love wasn’t about finding someone perfect to marry. Love was about seeing through to the truth of a person, and accepting all their shades of light and dark. Love was an ability”

2011-05-10T07:53:00.002-07:00

I used to be so annoyed that after i complain my entire story to someone, they would just say,"it's life man." Like omg it will seriously piss the living shit out of me. But now i'm starting to come to terms with the fact that, even if you didn't want to believe it, it's like the cold hard truth staring back at you.

So i have a job!! For the moment, need to start on one before my bank account goes to a zero. I'm such an impulse buyer i swear, i just walked into swatch today and come out with a new swatch watch in like 5 mins??? I don't even think. And i walk into topshop and come out with like 4 new items?! Ok i don't even know what i was thinking today la.

My job starts tomorrow! I'm gonna be hanging out with little cutiepies who are like prolly 5 that i can have meaningful conversations with. Ah so exciting i can't wait -.-

2011-05-10T07:42:00.001-07:00

“All I know is, no matter how much people hurt you, no matter how much you want to give up, and no matter how often the sun does not shine, you just need to keep going. Because for all the hurt that one person gives you, there are 10 others who care. For all the things that make you want to give up, there are so many things out there that are worth living for. And for all the days that seem cloudy and dark, just know that the sun is there, just waiting on its chance to shine.”

2011-05-10T07:41:00.001-07:00

“People will always walk in and out of your life. Some will stay longer than others. Some for a reason, some to teach you a lesson; and the most important one, to teach you about yourself. We won’t be able to distinguish which people are here for which reasons until they make their impact. And sometimes, that impact will be love and clarity. Other times, it will be hurt and sadness. Either way, it will teach you something. And what you gain has the ability to make you that much better off. Because truthfully, we are never too old to learn how to be happy.”

a place is only as good as the people you know in it

2011-05-10T07:36:00.004-07:00

That is so true. I think i'm getting used to being in Canada. Like this time when i came back, i didn't feel the excitement in fact i was kinda dreading the long flight back, but then it didn't feel like before. And in fact, i actually felt being okay in Canada. Shit this is bad, what if by the time i'm done with uni, i'll actually be fine living in Canada because of the people i have there.

2011-05-10T07:36:00.001-07:00

“You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices. Or you can fight back. Things aren’t always going to be fair in the real world. That’s just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give. The rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase. The choices you make and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now.”

2011-05-10T07:35:00.001-07:00

“Sometimes things don’t always work out as planned. Most times, actually. They don’t work out, and then we get upset or angry or depressed. That’s usually how it goes, but I’ve learned that life just does that to us sometimes. Life lets us down, so when it brings us up, we appreciate what we’ve missed on the way down. We appreciate the ride, we appreciate the feeling, we appreciate just being alive. Life does that; it brings us down, it disappoints us, but never forgets to bring us back up. And maybe when it takes a little longer, its because it’s waiting on us to do our part.”

You’re always close enough to touch, but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart.

2011-05-10T07:33:00.001-07:00

MISS EVERYONE

2011-05-08T19:13:00.008-07:00

Hiiiiiiiii ok i have been back for like 2 days? and it has been pretty much unproductiveeeee! I'm like desperately finding a job, but the pay is either too low, or i am way too picky for life. Ok kidding, i need a build-resume job that would really look good, like some office work in a law firm or known company for the matter. Wth omg i remember i told ian i wanted to be a lawyer like one of my dream job, and he said i can't argue and shut him up in one word. THAT IS NOT TRUE AND UNFAIR TOO. And plus it doesn't count when someone knows you well and it's not like i argue with him about substantial things! So ok i was like calculating, even if i work 5 days/week with a $7 pay, i still kinda earn peanuts that isn't gonna support me in second year. Oh gosh, and my trip to M'sia + bangkok, wth my life is seriously over already. Ok maybe i need a job that pays $9/hour yuppppp.

Alright, i'm going ikea to eat yumyum! and change my phone plan, so i can text my life away! ^^

2011-05-06T08:40:00.002-07:00

HAHA hello so I'm stuck in Tokyo for the night because I missed the flight back to Singapore. Ok not my fault, the stupid Airline's fault. But hey, i have a hotel room and 2 free meals, can't say it's the end of the world. Plus i get to shower!! And the food actually very bery nice HAHAHA. My stupid phone is giving me 10mil problems, is it me, or is like bb harder to connect to wifi. Everytime i try to connect, it works on my com but on my bb is doesn't. So tempted to get iphone now lor. ok gonna sleep ^^

2011-05-04T13:36:00.000-07:00

The elections in Sg are very very interesting I must say. HAHAHA ^^

Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network

2011-05-03T23:07:00.005-07:00

Wow i was reading my tumblr, like those really really old post back in 2010. Cause since this year started, i never ever reblog stuff, cause i hate clicking like 10mil links just to reblog so troublesome man. I just go down my timeline and read them. Stop after like 10mins cause it gets too depressing for me to handle HAHAHA. Why do sad stuff always sound more sentimental than happy stuff?

Like omggggg look at this!
June 17, 2010:

June 4, 2010:

I remember how we used to talk everyday, and i’d tell you things that i don’t even tell my closest friends. I remember how we used to laugh at the same things and how everything was comfortable. I remember when you used to call me when you were upset, or just to hang out with you. I remember how we could talk about anything and how you still remember the time when we first met. Now, this is what our friendship has become: awkward moments, so many things left unsaid that we don’t even know where to begin. I don’t even know where it started to go wrong.

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS LAURA? OMG i don't even remember what happened then!!! i don't even remember why i felt that way. Gosh i am so weird. No wonder xue kept asking me weirdo questions on sunday, about that period, when i honestly don't remember a single thing now!

May 24, 2010:
I don’t like how we never say hi anymore. I don’t like how much we’ve drifted apart. I don’t like how you look at me and quickly turn away like you didn’t see me at all. I don’t like how awkward everything has become when there is nothing to be awkward about. I don’t like that we never talk anymore, when we used to talk everyday about everything. I don’t like how you find out about what i’ve been up to from other people and not ask me about it yourslef. I don’t like the way we treat each other, waiting for the other person to make the first initiative. I don’t like the look you give me, like you’re mad at me for something that i don’t even know i did wrong. I don’t like many things even though i pretend that i don’t even mind.

REALLY???? THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED!! Wth i must be like so fucking sensitive then. I am so weird. Ok I still am very sensitive now la, but HUH??? reallyyyy it was this bad. Ok i must ask xue. I swear she remembers my life better than i do HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Maybe cause it hurt soooo much my mind automatically like sweep it to the back of my mind or something. Ok main point of everything is, i guess we both changed in a different sort of way, in a way i least expected. Looking at how things are now, maybe it's kinda worth it some how.

Shut down my heart for me?

2011-05-03T13:50:00.010-07:00

Omg hi i feel freaking obese right now cause i just ate like 10+ wings at wild wings today for dinner, and i had Kim get me a Mcdouble for teatime, and i had noodles at 1. So for approx like 12 hours? i ate all of that. Oh and like half a bottle of beer but i couldn't finish it. So grace and Jacklynn came to pick me up for dinner, wild wings and then drove for pool after. Which i have officially concluded after 2 hours of playing, that i am like freaking terrible. Ok i'm going to go back to Sg and play my life away HAHAHA. I'm so tired i just got back i need to start packing tomorrow. But i still have 10 million things to do then like stay at home and pack. On second thoughts, i don't even know where my luggage is AHAHAHAHA.

I am so dreading the plane ride back man. I wish i could teleport.

Empty.

2011-05-01T19:42:00.010-07:00

Hi Xue left, just 2 days gone in a flash like that. Up till 4.30am yesterday heart to heart talks in bed. Omg fuck, i'm so sad now i just feel so empty like everything that made me happy the past 2 days just like disappear into thin air. I swear when i send her off today, i just stared at my phone cause if i look up the tears will just flow. Sigh yai yai I don't even want to start thinking of every single thing we did together today. Laughing so hard and walking in the rain omg i miss you so so so much beibei mian.

i fucking hate goodbyes. Especially when you never know when you'll see them again. ok but at least there's whatsapp, fb, and skype. yayhoo technology -.-

Ok i have like no mood to do anything now. I already miss xue like it's the end of the world. And thinking about it makes me want to cry, so fuck it yeah i'm just going to watch something to take my mind off it for awhile. Tomorrow I'll be spending the day with my beloved housemate and greatest friend in utm now, Kimzypoo!! HAHAHAHAHAAHA ok she will kill me if she sees this, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Aiyoooo i've neglected her ever since i fell ill on Thurs, so must spend time with her before i go back to Singapore.

HIIIIIIIIIIIIII I'M FLYING BACK TO SG ON THURSDAY AT 11.30AM PLEASE HAPPILY AWAIT MY ARRIVAL IN SINGAPORE ON MAY 7TH MIDNIGHT!!!! AND CONTACT ME OR ELSE ME IS LONELY GALZ FOR LYFE OK I MEAN 4 MONTHS~~~~~~~~~~~~ SHANKEWBERYMUCHIE IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND YOU LOVE ME PLEASE HANG OUT WITH ME CAUSE I DON'T REALLY LIKE TO ASK PEOPLE OUT CAUSE THEY ALWAYS END UP REJECTING ME AND MY HEART WILL BE BROKEN INTO PIECES. AND IF YOU ARE MY CLOSEST FRIENDS YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT MY HEART HAS BEEN BROKEN INTO PIECES BY SOME STUPID JERK ALREADY SO PLEASE DON'T BREAK IT ANY FURTHER AND CALL ME~~~~~~ HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA lemme wink ;D

(ok i'm actually not happy at all so don't believe all the crap stated above cause i am seriously having suicidal thoughts right now.)

Party rockers in the house tonight

2011-04-28T16:14:00.019-07:00

Hello omg my sorethroat is killing me i can just die right now. I drank like a total of 4 cups of hot green tea, and took like 5 tablespoons of pei pa kao already. omg i cannot get sick cause xue is coming down and if i get sick i seriously will have no mood at all to talk to her HAHAHA.

So anyway, i'm back from our 2-day trip to the outlet malls in US. I think it was soooo productive! Felt like i did 10 times more stuff than i did on the 5-day trip i went last summer with my mum and sis. Hehehe my kate spade walletttttt, i think it's seriously the best thing i bought. Like so cheap omg if i can i'll just buy like all 3 colours already. But i'm so poor so nope. And i got the brown Coach wristlet for my sis. wah sey so cheap, like $27 only? HAHAHAHAHA as cheap as f21 tops i swear. Yup so i got 2, i actually really like the pink one because i never really see Coach with that design. Most of the design is the 'C' monogram but this one is like really cute. Even tho no one agrees with me because it's too pinky, but fuck it yeah so cheap HAHAHA me like can already. Hm what else did i get? some Tommy Hilfiger stuff, The duffel bag is soooo cute right? hehe oh some Ralph Lauren and BCBG stuff too. Not to mention the bag of Lindt chocolates for my family. Later they complain i spend so much on myself and never get them anything again. HAHAHAHAHAHA so i'm gonna be a good daughter. The cheesecake factory was really good, must try if you ever go to the states! HAHA i tried the Godiva chocolate cheesecake, to die for i swear. But now i have sore throat, so HAHAHA wth.

Ok it's gonna be Saturday soon whoopeedoooooooooooooo ^^ i don't know why i only look forward to seeing Xue. Wth i might as well just marry her yeah? I don't even look forward to seeing someone so much and mention it constantly like every post or something. And mostly i always like immediately reply her texts!! Cause most of the time, i read people's messages then i'm like so lazy to reply, so i just leave it there, until like few mins later and i'll reply. HAHAHA ya lor so in conclusion, i reply hers like mega fast faster than i reply yeah. Ok this is seriously out of the blue HAHAHAHA.

Downtown tomorrow! Yayyyyy i really wanna go eat hotpot tomorrow at Grace's house, but i don't know what time we're gonna be back so sigh :( oh well kim said yessss!!! So ok steady we going to eat hotpot. I'm like so lazy to reply people on my bb, HAHAHA i think by like 9pm i just let it die there and reply the next day.

2011-04-25T11:16:00.003-07:00

Thanks for making me feel like I'm worth nothing to you, every single time. Thanks for making me feel like i don't stand anywhere in your life. If i was really worth that little to you, why don't you let me make a grand exit out of your life. Stop all your bullshit and nonsense yeah? Wouldn't that makes things easier for you? One less person to meet up with. One less person to keep the friendship with. One less person for you to fucking care about.

So i'll let you go, i'll set you free.

2011-04-23T17:49:00.019-07:00

Hi leonie, you're damn skinny 4eva! HAHAHAHAHAHA you still look nice with the wind blowing your hair in your face.

Hailow, I'm booking the bus transport to Buffalo NY, and it's pissing the living shit out of me because the timings are so unearthly. Oh gosh, it's only making me want a car like asap man.

Today's morning attempt to walk to McD to get breakfast was such a fail cause i ended up waking up at like 1030, instead of 930. And i got so lazy because breakfast was gonna be over in like 15mins by the time i walk there. So breakfast at home. Sushi buffet for late lunch with Leonie and Kevin, So yummy ^^ We ordered too much though and wasted a lot :( luckily the manager was so niceeee. Then off to sing Karaoke with Kim and WeiWei. I need to stop singing K so much, i'm like getting so sick of it already.

Kim and I are gonna domestic housewives-in-the-making tomorrow. The house is like so messy, HAHAHA aftermath of final exams. oh HAHAHAHAHA i passed accounting!!!!!!!!!!!! Omg i couldn't be any happier i swear. I think best moment of the week man. YAY i have hope of getting into Commerce whoopeedooooooooooooo

That should be me holding your hand

2011-04-23T09:05:00.005-07:00

Hi i am so sleepy i just feel like going back to sleep all the time. But i can't because i know i will never get to sleep until like 3am if i do that every morning. Like as if my sleeping cycle is not messed up enough. Ok anyway, had dinner with Leonie, Kevin and Kim yesterday, bubble tea + din. Omg and after we got home, I was like,"Kim let's play monopoly deal." HAHAHA so we had beer and monopoly deal for our late night. Fuck what a life we have right? Then we got bored so we ended up playing scrabble. And i'm sooooooooooooo bad at it i swear, i can't spell for nuts. Ok maybe it was the beer acting up, cause i couldn't think at all. So we gave up and switched back to monopoly deal HAHAHAHA we so cutie hor?

Hehe i'm going to sing Karaoke later kekekex miso happy! ^^
Oh my goodness, i am so broke, i can't stand it i swear my life pretty much over by now la. Alright i shall go watch another of my show, the mentalist, like seriously everyone should go watch it la damn addictive, murder shows are so interesting HAHAHA

Too long, Too late.

2011-04-22T22:44:00.009-07:00

I honestly want a new camera now. Olympus pen nownownow! Ok i can't wait to go back to Singapore! Gonna get a new camera with my new pay kekekex.

So anyway, i have stopped Nua-ing at home already, that part of my life is seriously over already la. I can't believe i was doing that for like 2 days straight. Omg i seriously need to buy kim this fucking loud alarm clock or something i swear. Wah lao, every morning her alarm clock rings min: 15 mins, and she cannot wake up one ok? Can you seriously imagine my torture. So photos above was my trip down to Markham to meet Rachel! ^^ Lunched at din tai feng, omg the xiao long paos are to die for seriously. I ate like 6 and i think i could have eaten another 10 more man. Shopped around for my bb housing, but failed. Then ended with super yummy bubble tea and fried udon, so scrumptious.

Ok i'm so tired to upload the pictures that Kim and I took today. My eyes are so dry right now i seriously wanna cry so that it'll be more moisturized.

Alllllllright, good nitez.

2011-04-20T00:20:00.002-07:00

“May we never let the things we can’t have, or don’t have, or shouldn’t have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can have. As we value our happiness let us not forget it, for one of the greatest lessons in life is learning to be happy without the things we cannot or should not have.”

ok shit i shouldn't have gone on tumblr.

Just now i was talking to Xue, and she started scolding me again. As usual, ok but i kinda came to terms with it already. It's for my own good! :D
Omg and i came up with my own quote,
"There's so many open doors in front of me, but i just had to stare and look at the closed one."

Wah i'm awesome aren't I?
Ok i better go get some sleep before my sleeping cycle really gets screwed up for good.

Till the morning we dream so long

2011-04-19T19:19:00.002-07:00

Omg HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII my exams are over over over!!!!!!!!!! So i'm so free like a bird HAHAAHA. Kim is sitting in front of me now, and she's not even studying so i wanted her to take pictures with me, but she refused to. So here i am, looking like a self absorbed narcissist.

I feel like going clubbing HAHAHA. Everytime i hear the song 'the show goes on' it like ultimate Whooooo~ song la.

Okkkkkkkkkk, my phone is vibrating like siao now. But i'm just letting it die there HAHAAHA cause i damn lazy to reply people sian. My whatsapp jams at this excessive rate of idk how many times a week. Maybe cause i have so many messages coming through all the time. Omg i think the group chat thingy is so cool!!! HAHAHAHA was like talking to xue and yk just now, omg fucking funny seriouslyyyyyyyyy. I laugh like siao lor HAHAHAHA

So everyone is still having their exams. And i have no one to hang out with, today i just like nua at home, on the sofa watching my murder show. Wah damn addictive seriously. I always wonder how the script writer thinks of all these plots on how to kill someone. HAHAHA they kill people ah. And then everytime someone message me and ask me what i'm doing, i'll be like telling them i'm watching murder show, i think everyone doesn't wanna be my friend anymore.

Sigh anyway my final marks are up already. I'm so fucking scared. Omg right now my gpa is like botherline of what i aimed to get. I swear if it goes down any lower i will fucking cry already man. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

okie i feel quite bad for Kim cause she has to listen to all my constant worrying at random time of the day. Like in the middle of the day i will suddenly start swearing about how i'm so scared HAHA. Fuck why commerce so hard to get into. whywhywhyyyyyyy. If i don't get in what am i going to do. Aiya fuck la. Who the hell maintains like an average of 73 for like 7 courses?! And who's the asshole who said that overseas easier. Siao ah that person should be shot!! Everyone thinks that overseas so easy, please lor, easy ge pi ah. Easy to get into a uni which is like 17th world ranking, damn hard to even get to second year man, damn hard to even stay in la. Ok and what if i don't get into Commerce, i have no idea what i'm going to do. I can't do science for nuts i'm fucking science illiterate i swear. Let's see, art courses? Nope. Not happening, hate memorizing for nuts. Maybe i'll do like 2 majors, like Econs and statistics major. Yeahhhhhhhh i heard that being a statistician is like the 2nd most wanted job leh. Not bad pay somemore ;)

Ok not gonna worry about it now. Gonna watch my murder show HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Take care

2011-04-19T00:42:00.003-07:00

Oh, no you can just continue telling me everything that i don't already know. Well isn't that nice, because i figured it all out from the start. You weren't different, you're the same. And maybe for those previous moments, i chose to believe that it wasn't true. Maybe it was because i wanted to believe that after all this time, you could still prove me wrong. That maybe out of the many wrongs in you, there was that one right, that could make me see you the way i always have. And you know that one right just flew straight out the window. What's left now is me looking at you and thinking, you're pathetic.

Put up your hands, Say I don't wanna be in love

2011-04-17T15:32:00.005-07:00

TOMORROW IS MY LAST EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA can you feel my excitement? ^^

Ok I don't even know why i'm so chill. This afternoon i can still watch ANTM on tv with Kim, text a few people for awhile. Make some kaya toast cause i stone until i started thinking of yakun kaya toast. Watch stupid videos online. I'm so fail la. Maybe because it's the last exam, so i'm just thinking like, ok just need a 63, and the rest just fuck it.
OMG i realised that ever since exams started my swear rate is like ultimate high la. Wah i need to stop it. HAHAHA Later i go back to Singapore, in front of my parents i suddenly go like,"aiya fuck it la." I think i confirm + chop get slaughtered into 10 pieces.

TO MY BABY GIRL XUE,

REMEMBER ALL OF THIS?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i was like browsing for a photo of both of us, and guess what i found!! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA Omg if you asked me then, i would have like yelled in your face that you very gross and so damn lovey dovey i can't stand it. So you always tell me that you don't wanna tell me about you and yk cause i confirm say that whatever y'll do is damn gross. Which is true HAHAHAHA cause it's sooooo cheesy, ew it makes me nauseous. But i was looking at this photo, and i seriously laugh la. Omg it's damn cute!! Even though it was only a few months ago < a year, but i think somehow or another, we've all grown up a teeny bit. And remember everything we talked about when everything started in July. Don't forget any of it okie. I love you, and if you ever feel depressed i'll always be here to cheer you up and talk to you on the phone for like 2 hours 30 mins to like 5 hours 30 mins i also can la. But i swear you'll be fucking sian of my voice by then. Ok that's besides the point. The point is....................... ( i also don't know) I just thought the picture vvvvvvvvv cute now. HAHAHHAHAHAA like so young and ke ai. Alright, i also don't know why you would be feeling like how i felt? Cause erm you text him every single day and know his whereabouts all the time, but i don't. So it's kinda more logical for me to wonder at random times if he got home safe, but it's a different story for yours leh. Anyhow, i need to shi shi so i have to end this quick so i can go pee.

Aiyo the point is that, i am insanely jealous by how much he loves you and i hate you for that which i already told you on the phone cause both of you look very cute together and it only makes me want a bf who will love me more than i love him. Of course that is totally cynical and i don't believe in such lovey dovey thing nowadays cause none of it is true. And you're my best friend and i want you to be happy so stop being depressed la!! If you feel depressed, i should be in fucking depression therapy by now right?

LAST BUT NOT LEAST...............

I'M GOING TO SEE YOU SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KEKEKEKE and now i know you read my blog. I'm gonna write long messages to you so you can read it hehe since you barely ever reply me and it annoys the shit out of me. But i forgive you, it's just you -.- You gong gong.

Okie i really have to go and shishi already and i'm so hungry too omg. HAHAHAAHA